I put a dining room set together!

cuz that's what grown ups with their own apartments do. They also do said assembly instead of writing their premiere academic article. But the night is young, even if I have work tomorrow. I will forge ahead.

incidentally, strawberry sorbet and black water is quite a combo!

Soy un perdedor

I think this is a lesson for my passive aggressive nature. I've got to be more direct more clear, more assertive. And I know this and I say this and yet I don't act. and the truth is, the worst is not bad when you're holding all the cards. Feelings get hurt, well mine were hurt already.

the writing's on the wall . . .

but not in this blank word document i have in front of me.

tryin' to write this D4/4/3 piece and i'm having a little trouble. I have to admit the second album is kinda hot. I can't find the writing credits on any of these albums though. Any suggestions out there?

by the way my tire is fine.

hmmm

so i think i'll do another list because, i don't really have time for much more.

1. deLaine's post and subsequent responses made me act
2. one of my wheels is teetering on a blowout (my car is two months old)
3. i still need to write
4. i love blueberries and/or mangoes
5. i have to go


until later

I roze a little today . . .

in spite of my habitually passive aggressive behavior! I welcomed a newbie into the big mama fold and i've got some other things under construction.

until later. . .

What is a friend really?

Like can you really be someone's friend if you aren't disclosing things that you know that could hurt? Or do you say something?

I'm feeling very unsettled now, very disconnected from people because I don't know what is my place. What's ok and what's not.

I still haven't written anything . . . grumble

Quick to back down

I had this moment, this glorious moment today where I could have rizen. I saw it felt the potential but I couldn't quite make it kinetic. The matrix wins again! But I know how it works, so hopefully I won't get got again.

Two posts today!

heard bobby valentino on the radio today. he's funny and offensive. I've decided that I don't really like his songs lyrically but they are on top of beautiful music. You use a crouching tiger/yo-yo ma -esque sounding loop in the back I might be inclined to sing:

Oh ma tell me
How did you get that in those jeans
The way you poppin it is killing me
Look over here come follow me

That's Peace

had one of those deep late night "you think you know but you have no idea" convo's with the roommate last night. The road to hell was paved with good intentions - is so real!

So it's after my lunch break and I feel recharged. Maybe this 9-5 thing isn't the worst thing that ever happened to me.

I'm going to work on posting more, get back to my mad at the world self.

Motivation

I finally saw Alysia & Co yesterday! So good to be back in the mix.

The roommate, tiona and I rolled to IKEA. I've never been and I must say that place is overwhelming. I almost couldn't handle it. But it did encourage us to get on our jobs . . . as did jah's post.

My writing is stagnant. I haven't written anything in so long. Not even in my journal. Writer's block, or something. I have things I need to say, critiques i want to make but i'm in a real place of self doubt now. grad school is two months away and I'm wondering . . .wondering about these next 5 years i signed up for, that I "worked" for.

Mike gave some words of encouragement but i dunno if that's enough.

I miss my messy dorm room.

". . .face painted like a warrior. . ."

Alii got me the RIZE soundtrack for my b'day!! The CD is also a DVD and Lil'C (and some other krumper) teach the basics!! Subsequently, I tried to get krump in the shower which was not the best idea.

So here's a list of stuff, because it hurts a little to type ;)

1. I secretly like Luther Vandross's music, don't tell my mama . . . oh wait she reads this
2. I have two very important playlists to make in the next couple of weeks
3. I need to write something for this feminist hip-hop anthology
4. Bettina's Blog is the Bomb! So eloquent and concise . . .
5. I miss the 'ville
4. I miss the 'ville crew
5. I think bobbi christina uses food to fill the void in her life created by two marginally functional parents
6. Even when I try to rize, i sugarcoat things.
7. I need to be a more aggressive driver
8. I didn't love crash
9. I want to write a book and a screenplay
10. I am opening up